A day in ward

Date : 30 june
Location : ward


last day of june...
actually i feel like dont wanna speak out...
but i really damn depress at this moment...
tomolo on morning shift
now is 11pm nite n i need to wake up at 5.30 am next morning!!
y i dont wanna sleep??
cos i cant!
i cant speak to anybody how i feel
cos they'll think
"你活该!"
de only way i can do to express all my feelings in here lo...

actually today is a peaceful day...
since i'm having a off day yesterday n i'm not taking case ad 3 days since i change to this team...
i kno nothing about it!!
not i wanna comment about anything about it...
but i really dont kno so details tat i just take over!
i kno i kno
this is not an excuse..
but i already did de best i can!
how would i kno there is a wound chart for a surgical wound?!
as i kno there is no need to put on wound chart to a surgical wound accept pressure sore...
ok
i kno...
i didnt check properly...
but de case note inside is so messy...
okok..
another excuse..

ok ok i kno...
i almost cos her get 2 e hor tat is very serious...
i really feel guilty about it...
not becos after she scolded me only feel guilty...
but...nvm...no excuse....
i really trying to keep improve myself to keep going faster ad...

yes...she really need to b very alert while i'm passing report to her....
i also will do tat if a girl almost cos me get 2 e hor instate of 1....
but...
dont too hush to me la....
now i get scared ad...
keep thinking when is her next shift...
am i going to pass report to her...
forbear ad...
crap la....
u can scold me i dont mind...
cos i really did wrong...
but dont keep korrak de things until very very details...
i only 6 months baby...
n fresh graduated from college than straight come here ad....
okok...
i kno..
6 months is more than enough...
but for de ppl who train in SG is more than ENOUGH!!!
i train in other country....
haiz....
i kno this is also an excuse....
but...
haiz.....
give me sometime la....
teach me....
i welling to learn...
haiz...
dont kno la....
feel damn stress when being work v her....
but i'll keep moving.....
but pls dont scold me only....
teach me n let me kno wat should i do....
than next time i wont do de same mistake...
i love my job...

while i'm on de way back home....
i keep thinking...
i really need to keep it up this...keep up that....
yes..i really need it!!
stress....
so i light up a cigarette...
thinking n thinking....
i kno i kno...
smoking is bad for health...
but sometimes really cannot la....
i really need to re-less abit....

now is 12am ad....
still got another 4 hours to sleep...
'U GO GIRL!!' telling myself...
but really cant sleep...
moody~~
so~~

took my herbalife chocolate as a supper!!

yeah!!

hoping n blessing tomorrow wont happen again....

mmuaxx!!!



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