Long Lost Post

hi everybody,

understand it's been a while (since 2013 is my last post) didnt blog.
in this 2016 evolution of mine,
i'm gonna start blogging again.

by sharing all my 2015

it's been the greatest life in 2015

- Get proposed by the man i loved in Jan,
- Planned our wedding in 2015.
- Get my promotion from Staff Nurse to Senior Staff Nurse.
- Seeing My Student graduated from nursing school then join us n passed her probation become independently handling her own patients (by seeing ur own baby grown up)
- Get married in Nov from 'Ms' become 'Mrs'.

indeed is a great achievement in my life.

Photo shooting day ^^

Date : July 2013

It's been awhile tat I've been stop updating my blog,

Not tat active on my makeup job

Since that's a opportunity tat my photographer invited me to help my model

Start being active in my side job n increase my portfolio,

So I decided to tk my own pic instead ^^

Since I'm still young n how many 25 yrs u hv in ur whole life?!

Before start showing my current pic

I decided to show my very chui n very fat pic first

5 yrs ago in. 2008 in Pulau Redang, Malaysia,

De most fatty moment I'm having n my BMI almost hit overweight!!!

I kno u guys was see my boobs ( trust me is all fats!! )

So I decided to slim down,

Eventou de effect is not much

But it makes me healthier n happy ^^

My 2009-2013(march)

The pic over the right side is taken by my photographer Andrew 

Currently my photographer Mike decided to take more pic about me ^^

And Tats de effect ^^

Innocent n sweet looking...

Nvr though I can hv this kind of look!! ^^

Day 2 shooting

Self taking pic before de shoot ^^

Mom says she's  gonna tk this pic match make for me

Lol!!!

Mom is so obsess tat I can hv a bf ASAP....

The before and after pic ^^

Tat I'm kind of proud of it

Even my weight is not hit into my expectation 

(Becos I can't control my mouth :p)

PS :

Stay healthy

Stay happy 

And 

Be confidence!! 

Muaxx!!!

Stay toon for de uploading pic in my fb

There's more coming up ^^

THE END

Happy new year!!!

In 2012...
Get my PR,
Finish my diploma in Make up artist,
Get my very 1 business card in my life,
Transfer to icu which I've been waiting for 3 year,
Holiday in Taiwan which I've been dreamed for 3 year...
Short trip v my old classmate tat we hv been discuss about for almost 4 years.

This is de most meaningful year in my life ^^

Plan of 2013...
Survive in icu,
Get another cert for hair styling ,
Build up my business,
Holiday with my bbf to Hanoi n hk,
Get a diving cert (planned for few yrs, this time I'm going alone!!)
Slim down to 45kg ( for de passed few yrs unsuccessful)
Get a new man n get married (lol!!! This is every year wishes)

Happy new year!!!!

A moment that i've been waited for 10 yrs

during secondary sch life...
everybody keep thinking about their future
plan it since young wat they wanted to b when they grow up

my dream is to b a make up artist ^^
but due to being a make up artist future not as bright as being a nurse
mum ask me to b a nurse instead to b a make up artist

good girl must listen to mum rite?
nursing sch life takes 3 yrs away from me
but im not regret to b a nurse

honestly, i like to b a nurse :)
taking care of elderly
those cute granny n granpa

being a nurse never stop me from my dream ^^
saved money study my make up artist course
6 months part time study life is de happiest moment i had in my life

meet new frens

happy moment always is short

started my course on april
ended on sept

exams makes me feel nervous reminded me during sch life ^^

when to my aunt house collect my letters
received a letter from my sch


exam result out!!!

get theory 84%
practical 81%

yeeah!!!
though i can get distinction
lol!!!
mayb i think too much

collected my cert on de next day
meet up all my classmates at de same day

feel like wanna cry when i received this

no words can explain de moment when i received this

T-T

when for dinner v my classmates

grab some pancakes tats just opp my sch

yum yum ^^

oreo milk shake ^^

when back to sch again to choose my pretty models pics

i think i just chosen all de pic tat from de album for my portfolio

evening bridal

corpse bride

fashion make up

Queen of heart

day bridal

long list of pics tat i've choose
wow!!
17 piece of 4R pic free from sch
others 5R pic sgd 5.35 per pic
T-T
$$$......

but u kno wat?
all my models see beh chio TTM!!!!
worth it!!!

photo takes 1 month to process....
hope hope hope my photos chio as wat v saw in de album

so excited!!!
 cant wait for my photos to b done ASAP!!!!

now my plans is....
gonna b freelance make up artist
not gonna stop being a nurse even i get my make up artist cert ^^




-THE END-

Portfolio Day ^^

Title : portfolio day

Date : 15 sept 2012

Started my diploma make up class on 17 april

6 months course

today is de final day of for de class

Portfolio day!!

it means all ur hard work

everything tat wat we had been tough

wat we had been learn

all will b showing in this day

5 design of make ups

2 bridal make up

2 fashion make up

1 effect make up

4 model

Queena

Eileen

Germain

Zarita

design our own make up

our own topic

n a processional photography gonna help all our models take pic

wats my design??

Queena - day bridal

Zarita - evening bridal

Eileen - fashion make up

Germain - corpse bride

Germain - Queen of the heart 

y Germain got 2??
cos i ass itchy wanna do more
lol!!

portfolio gonna start from 9am - 5pm

Woke up early in de morning 6am
paranoid me keep digging my luggage repeating checking n checking

did a final checked before im out of my house

i'm ready to go!!

My luggage is heavy like shit!!
It is almost same weight as mine!!
Took cab to sch
Planned to b there early so tat can prepare n set my station 

In de end...

9am sch is not open yet!!!

bo bian seat downstairs de coffee shop grap some food...

knowing that later not gonna hv help to eat....

after breakfast all of my classmates included me waited outside de door
like tramp
@_@

9.15am

finally our teacher is here to release us in!!!

faster get my things n start my make up!!

1st make up

Corpse Bride (germain)

tats de longest time tat im gonna spend

so decided to start this 1st.

this is de sample suppose to be

poor Germain due to de fake blood on her neck she cannot wear jacket
freeze to dead

using hair dryer to warm her up

this make up spend me almost 3 hrs!!!

but worth it ^^

tats 1 of my master piece^^

2nd make up

 Day Bridal

Queena

due to de 1st make up spend 3 hrs 

started her at 12pm

tat suppose to start at 11am!!

love the dress ^^

3rd make up

Zarita

Evening bridal

Saree!!!

borrowed this saree from my fren included de accessory

so chio!!

4th make up

Germain again

Queen of the heart

suppose this make up is to be more evil

but running out of time

create this make up within 15 mins!!!

when started her make up is ad 3pm ++

n i havent took my lunch yet!!

hand shaking until i cant draw a proper eye liner

T-T

5th make up

fashion make up

( cos i dont kno wat title shld i give)

lol!!

de most sexiest dress i rent from sch

^^

been standing de whole day since 9am

bodyaching

fasted almost 10hrs

almost cos me gastric

hand shaking until i need to take a deep breath only can continue de make up

but all this master pieces

i love it ^^

and it worth it!!

photo n exam result would b out after 2 weeks
n i'm so excited!!
sch only will gv us hard copy
n they'll only gv us 7 4R size pic ONLY!
other then tat we need to pay
it's ok...
tats my act work!!
i'm so gonna keep it!!

lastly....
did i mention tat all my models r nurses??
lol!!

不要小看nurses hor!!
nurses can b very very pretty n sexy!!

its been a very happy moment with all my classmate tat we had been spending 6 months together
tired tat need to go class after work
stress tat need to learn n remember all de steps for all de make ups n hair designs

ppl wil think

'make up only ma... just draw draw on the face can liao..y spend so much money on it?'

but for me
i willing to spend this money to learn more
make up is not only making ppl to b pretty only
it can make a person looks see beh ugly!!
make ups can make a person become ANOTHER person!
it's like a fairy
blink! u turn ugly
blink! u back to u again
blink! u now very pretty!!

class ended
gonna miss my teacher n classmates deep deep

PS : soon my name card will b out ^^

check out my page if u wanna kno more about me about make ups ^^
https://www.facebook.com/GucciMakeUpArtist

Happy girl ^^



-THE END-

Worst day ever 3

Though I've move on...
Though we still r frens no matter wat happen
But de fact he did ppl can see it
My ears cant close just becos v still working in de same environment

Heard my frens said they saw both of them in out in de hosp very often
Even saw her waiting for him at de lobby....

If he really said wat he think (freedom thing)to me
This won't b happening
If he really faithful to me
If he really love me
If he really just wanna hv his freedom back
All de above won't b happening

N de girl had a bf in Philippine!!!
Don't they feel guilty when going out together?
Don't she feel guilty to her bf when going with him sweet sweet?
Ya rite...cos de bf is not in Sg...
She don't even bother...

He changed
Changed to a person I don't kno anymore
Changed to a different guy tat I kno for 3 yrs
Changed becos of her
Changed tat he betray me becos of her
Changed tat he Knowing to tel lies
He changed after he start his vegan diet
He Changed after he knowing too much of vegan makes de brain also vegan
Heartbroken when he changed to a person tat I don't kno anymore

Ppl still asking me

Do u still love him?
I can say yes

Do u hate him?
No...I don't kno how to hate a person...hate.a person is very tiring...

Will u regret loving him?
No...we really had a great time together

If he come back to u...will u wanna b with him back?
If 2 weeks ago I'll say 'YES!'
But now...after all he had done to me....I'll think about it...

Loving him is not a mistake
Leaving me is his mistake

I just lost a guy tat he don't even love me
He lost a girl tat love him so much

Relationship is a thing tat need to give n take
Mayb this time I've been giving too much...
Stepping too deep
I even went to church cos of him
Been sacrificed too much on this relationship....
Heartache until I can't breath when I heard all those things
Heartache until I feel like wanna use scissor poke into my heart to release de pain....
De fact he did to me really makes my heart broken to thousand of pieces....

I HAD ENOUGH!!!
NO MORE TEARS ANYMORE!!!
This time
I'm gonna put a 'stop'
Back to my shell
Hide myself

P.S 原来失恋真的很痛苦
Sorry for de past I hurt anybody

-THE END-

Worst day ever day 2

Back to a lonely life again for de pass 3 4 yrs?? Can't remember how long being alone before a new relationship started....

Nvr though of no sweet calls
Going back alone after work
Watch movie alone
Dinner alone
No calls nor sweet msgs
Is not an issue for me
Nvr feel lonely being alone during single life

Nvr took my breakfast, lunch n dinner yesterday
Due to no appetites
Nvr feel hungry at all seriously
Forcing myself to drink my shake even I'm not hungry just to avoid gastric back to me again....
Same as today...
Took my shake as breakfast n lunch...
Bought some breads for dinner
(very unhealthy but better than non)

Insomnia last nite
Turning around on my bed
Trying to rest myself last nite
Slept at 3am in de morning
Woke up at 5.30am
Wow...
Slept 2 n half hours only
N Back to real life in de morning

Working as usual today
Work load like mad in de ward
Heavy work load keeps me bz for 8 hrs
Stopping me from thinking all de shit things for 8 hrs

But after settle down....
Emo say 'hi' to me again
Loneliness visit me
Back home myself
Though of having a dinner with him
Just becos he worried tat I won't take any proper meal for de day (as I always did)

Texted him about de dinner date
In de end he cannot make it cos need to dinner with his mum
Asking me wanna join him for dinner o not
But wat position shld I show up infront of his mum?
A Gf?
A Fren tat just broke up with him not even 2 days?
Really enjoy dinner nor lunch with his family for de pass 8 months
Miss those moment gossiping with his family
Makes me feel so close n family love when v dine together
Wish I could join them for dinner
even as a Fren of his
But don't wanna makes him feel like indirectly stressing him to keep him stay beside me

Rejected dinner v his family
Took some breads for dinner tat I bought today after work
(1st 'proper meal' for this 2 days)

Downloading hk drama n movie as usual ill do during single life

Feel so lost
Don't kno wat shld I do to keep me stop thinking those nonsense shit other then downloading drama n movies
Don't feel like going out for shopping
Not in de mood at all
Mentally tried

BFF n colleague keep texts me to cheer me up
Happy to have them in my life

Though had enuff of losing my tears....
Though...

Mum called today
Don't dare to let her kno wats happening here
Mayb I'm not ready yet to tel my love one how I feel
Don't wanna let them worry about me
But eventually will let them kno when I'm strong enuf
Mayb 1 day I'll get over with....
Time will pass
But how long shld I heal my scars?
Will takes how long to heal?
I don't kno
Mayb 1 month? 3 months? Yrs??
Really don't kno
But life still go on

Mayb I'm still waiting...
Waiting for him...
Waiting for him to turn back to me
Waiting for him to say he had enuff of freedom
Ya...
I'll wait ^^

Falling in love is just a sec of moment
De process of keeping makes us grow up
But forgetting a person takes life....
This is wat love is...

I'm a very cheerful person
Hope get well soon

Think +ve!!
This is de moment to slim down
I kno I kno
A very unhealthy sliming process
But taking my Herbalife shake can keeps me having nutrition from taking those unhealthy food!!
45kg here I come!!

Love <3 <3


-THE END-