Started a new rs since last yr
We found alot of in common between us
Attitude...life style....habits...work life...even thoughts almost de same...
Telling to whole world tat v r in love..
Had alot of precious moment being together
He's attitude n thinking more to a female thoughts
my attitude n thinking more to a guys thoughts
Holidays to Phuket during his bday
Really had a great time v him
Planing to go for another holiday during my bday....
We even plan about our future house regrading de renovation....Location...
Weddings...honeymoon...furniture for our future house...
Even planning to save money to get a better wedding
Nvr though of losing each other until a girl appear between us...
A girl tat had a beautiful voice
Nice body...
(seriously I don't kno tat girl at all)
Been quarreling with him over a week just becos of he hiding behind me n went out with tat girl
Keep trying to explain to me both of them is impossible being together....
She is catholic n he is Christian
But who knows tat she'll gv up her religion becos of him?
Wat I'm asking is just a simple inform before he out v de girl cos I trusted him tat both of them r not in love with each other...
He started being emo cos I'm de 1 who restrict him making frens (he said)
Anyway,
He claim tat no more freedom being with me
Mayb I'm not good enuf
Mayb I'm not worth for him to stay
Nvr though of losing him until today
V nvr quarrel so much until de girl happen to appear....
Cry like mad every time v quarrel....
Been trying to work out everything every time....
Been trying to explain to him wats my thoughts...
Been trying to keep our relationship as much as I could
But in de end of the day
He had enuff
Wanted put a dot on our relationship
Wat more can I do to keep him?
Nvr ever had a bf like him so caring n lovely guy....
Trying to work out on he's family to make them like me
Cos he is a 100% family guy
I kno tat being with him is not him only...
Quit smoking due to he hates smokers
Willing to accept all my bad habits
Willing to go back late just to send me home safely
Mayb I'm putting too much of hope on him...
Mayb I'm too afraid to loss him
Mayb I'm too obsess to keep him
Tats wat happen....
Will nvr regret loving him is a mistake...
Thanks for being in my life
Best Fren keep asking me to tk an off to rest myself
Rest my brain
But in de end I still went to work
Though can stop thinking about him
Though I'm strong enuf to handle it
But no...
I'm too weak this time
Too weak of losing this rs
Don't think so I can move on
Or mayb I'll b single for a long time...
Or won't trust any relationship anymore
In de end of the day
I still love him
Really love him
Will always open my heart if he turns back to me...
Say I'm sturbun
Say I'm ego...
But this is who I am
Cried like mad of losing him until I need to wear my ugly spec due to my eyes swollen like mad
My eyes Cant even open fully....
Shit!!
I'm not ok at all!!
Time pass won't heal my scars
But wat more a lady need?
A family guy
A caring bf
Non smoker
No drinker
Don't gamble
A lovely guy
I'll wait for him...
Still love him so much
Will always wait for him to turn back to me
Ps : don't worry tat I won't do stpd things to myself cos life is precious...
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