Nvr though of no sweet calls
Going back alone after work
Watch movie alone
Dinner alone
No calls nor sweet msgs
Is not an issue for me
Nvr feel lonely being alone during single life
Nvr took my breakfast, lunch n dinner yesterday
Due to no appetites
Nvr feel hungry at all seriously
Forcing myself to drink my shake even I'm not hungry just to avoid gastric back to me again....
Same as today...
Took my shake as breakfast n lunch...
Bought some breads for dinner
(very unhealthy but better than non)
Insomnia last nite
Turning around on my bed
Trying to rest myself last nite
Slept at 3am in de morning
Woke up at 5.30am
Wow...
Slept 2 n half hours only
N Back to real life in de morning
Working as usual today
Work load like mad in de ward
Heavy work load keeps me bz for 8 hrs
Stopping me from thinking all de shit things for 8 hrs
But after settle down....
Emo say 'hi' to me again
Loneliness visit me
Back home myself
Though of having a dinner with him
Just becos he worried tat I won't take any proper meal for de day (as I always did)
Texted him about de dinner date
In de end he cannot make it cos need to dinner with his mum
Asking me wanna join him for dinner o not
But wat position shld I show up infront of his mum?
A Gf?
A Fren tat just broke up with him not even 2 days?
Really enjoy dinner nor lunch with his family for de pass 8 months
Miss those moment gossiping with his family
Makes me feel so close n family love when v dine together
Wish I could join them for dinner
even as a Fren of his
But don't wanna makes him feel like indirectly stressing him to keep him stay beside me
Rejected dinner v his family
Took some breads for dinner tat I bought today after work
(1st 'proper meal' for this 2 days)
Downloading hk drama n movie as usual ill do during single life
Feel so lost
Don't kno wat shld I do to keep me stop thinking those nonsense shit other then downloading drama n movies
Don't feel like going out for shopping
Not in de mood at all
Mentally tried
BFF n colleague keep texts me to cheer me up
Happy to have them in my life
Though had enuff of losing my tears....
Though...
Mum called today
Don't dare to let her kno wats happening here
Mayb I'm not ready yet to tel my love one how I feel
Don't wanna let them worry about me
But eventually will let them kno when I'm strong enuf
Mayb 1 day I'll get over with....
Time will pass
But how long shld I heal my scars?
Will takes how long to heal?
I don't kno
Mayb 1 month? 3 months? Yrs??
Really don't kno
But life still go on
Mayb I'm still waiting...
Waiting for him...
Waiting for him to turn back to me
Waiting for him to say he had enuff of freedom
Ya...
I'll wait ^^
Falling in love is just a sec of moment
De process of keeping makes us grow up
But forgetting a person takes life....
This is wat love is...
I'm a very cheerful person
Hope get well soon
Think +ve!!
This is de moment to slim down
I kno I kno
A very unhealthy sliming process
But taking my Herbalife shake can keeps me having nutrition from taking those unhealthy food!!
45kg here I come!!
Love <3 <3
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